How funny. I just caught myself walking down a hall at work with my shoulders slumped forward, chin on my chest and a million things running around my head. I remembered my 96 year old grandmothers advice after my divorce years ago.

KEEP YOUR CHIN UP!!!! lol

I'm going to have my melt down tonight in the privacy of a hot bath. I'm going to gather myself and face the world again tomorrow just as I always do.

I'm pretty much at peace with life. My concerns are the stress on my family. If I brought this on myself through years of hard living. I hate that my family has to bear the end results.

That guilt is tough.

Thanks for everyones advice and support.
I will keep posting as I know more.

Age 35, Former smoker/drinker HPV+
Ear Ache 5/12
GP for ear ache 6/18
ENT for ear ache 7/12
CT shows cancer 7/12
Biopsy 8/12
diagnosed SCC
Base of tongue right side
Barely crossed midline
Nodes involved
PEG 9/12
35 IMRT start Sept 6th
Cisplastin x3 1 down 2 to go