I am still going - putting one foot in front of the other; I'm taking our Challenger - "The Beast" to Galveston this weekend just to get away. While its going to be cold, at least I can be in a hotel and look at the Gulf, get a massage and have a few cocktails. I know Jim wants me to keep going and I'm trying. Sue gave me a great website for new widows - it's a great site and I'm glad to know that what I'm feeling isn't any different from others. Thanks for staying with me on this...I feel like there's no place for me here anymore, but can't help but keep coming back.