There is no right or wrong way to grieve. We each grieve in our own way and in our own time.
When my husband died, it was months before I didn't feel disoriented & a few years before I felt true joy again, but it did happen.
Working through that profound grief was hard work - the hardest I ever did. I emerged changed, but also richer in understanding that life, indeed, is for the living.
Good luck. Enjoy Galveston.
Marlene
Marginal mandibulectomy 6/17/08 resulted in DX of Stage I SCC - gingiva (3 mm) right mandible, buccal side. Clear margins. Occasional social drinker. Smoked last cigarette in 1979. Clear pet: 12/08; 7/20/09. Yay!