C'mon Paula, pull out of the funk! Would Jim want you lying around and feeling bad by his passing or would he want you to be up and running and LIVING your life with his lovely memories held deep in your heart and mind of all the wonderful times you had together? You can't do this to yourself, it's not your fault so don't punish yourself. Do something for yourself and feel good, if you need to cry, cry, but do not stop living! If you can't do it alone go talk to somebody, if you are involved in a church talk to the preist, pastor, clergyman. If not find a grief counselor or group to help you thru this for you are not alone in this world unfortunately with facing the death of a loved one thru cancer. So get out of bed, take a shower/cry if needed, put on some makeup and of course clothes, hehe and get the heck out of the house and live! Go have a cocktail with friend and relax! Smell the air, look at the sky, watch the sun set or sun rise or both because YOU are still alive! Now smile! smile Don't you feel better?

CG to Ron
Out of Pain 4/3/13
4/12-lung and under chin growth no treatment
1/13/12 lung biopsy
6/11 recur 6/30 resection #2 Clear margins
Clear 12/10
Surg 5/13/10 neck dis/nodes part gloss/flap R thigh all teeth out
RAD 30 8/10
DX 4/2/10 "Oral Cavity" T3NOMO
12/28/07 Non Hodg Lymph remission 7/08
passed away 4.3.15, RIP Ron, you are greatly missed