Angelia....try not to think of the end yet just take it one day at time. You are strong and a positive person and it's ok to not feel positive all the time...it's human. As far as an antidepressant I would ask about it. I take them and am currently weening off with no problems. When I started them it made a HUGE difference. I would definitly ask about them. If it makes this journey easier for you that is important.

When you feel this way look at your adorable children and husband and remember you have a reason to fight. I'm sure that will give you the push you need:)

Suzanne
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T1 SCC on right side of tongue
Age 31...27 when diagnosed
4 partial glossectomies
No chemo or radiation
Biopsy on 2/2/10-Clear
Surgery needed again...no later than April 2011
Loving life and just became a mother on 11/25/10
It's not what we CAN'T do..it's what we CAN do:)