You guys are so amazing. As I sit crying my eyes out cause I feel like crap, you can still make me smile. My husband and my little boys are what keep me going. I do not to tell you all a funny about my 5 year old. We were at church last Wednesday night and I went to pick up the boys from their Bible Study and Andrew yelled as loud as he could "My mommy has a tube in her belly." I still smile when I think about that. They are so innocent and young I love them to pieces. I think what hurts the most is knowing that these boys are going to have to watch mommy go through this.