Cecilia, it's totally great to know I'm not the only one worried about my looks and muscles...I swear reading your post was like reading my own journal. I worry about my facial disfigurements and my lack of just size, I was 210lbs before treatment and only stand 5'9", I could bench close to 400lbs...now I'm working on doing "regular" pushups and lost 70lbs. Men are just as insecure about their looks as women...at least I am.

I've been gaining weight and muscle mass now that I'm on juice though and actually look healthy again...I could use another 10-15 lbs. of solid muscle but hey...who couldn't. I often wonder how many guys experience the chemical imbalance and are on steriods and what that's done for them. I guess I had an image in my mind that I would get super buff and aggressive and want to have sex all the time...kind of like the way I was before I got cancer lol.