Wow. That was mean. I must say sometimes I got so annoyed at Martin and got so frustrated that I felt like leaving, but not really, I think I just needed some air (I did have my embarrassing rant that I couldn't delete here). But some fresh air a quick walk and a rant with my best friend or my mom and I was fit again. I wouldn't have really left. I couldn't imagine leaving Martin especially at such a vulnerable time!
You are very brave to cope with all of this on your own. I think if I hadn't been there Martin would have had to be hospitalised or he would have starved and jumped out the window. Coping with this needs some serious determination and will power.