Oh Mariam i know that feeling!!!
Trouble is with this disease and the treatment,when it goes wrong ,it does it big time.

Like you i armed myself with all the knowledge i could find,but no where does it tell you what to do when nature intervenes and the wheels start to fall off.

Try to get some rest when you can and know we are all here for you when you need to scream.

love liz


Liz in the UK

Husband Robin aged 44 years Dx 8th Dec 2006 poorly differentiated SCC tongue with met to neck T1N2cM0 Surgery and Radiation.Finished TX April 2007
Recurrence June/07 died July 29th/07.

Never take your eye off the ball, it may just smack you in the mouth.