I was pesamistic thoughout my entire treatment. I was a vomiter and was dehydrated and not even able to hold to hold water much less the liquid meal. I was miserable andlost 80 lbs. which made me quite anemic looking and weak. I hid in my room and resigned myself to the "inevivitable". I'm relaying this because I'm still here . I have survived 2 years and life is pretty good. When I prayed, I prayed God's will be done..but I thought that was for me to pass on. But obviously it was not . Some people need to deal with the horror of cancae from the worst case scenerio, and I don't think it dampens your chance for survival,provided you keep to your treatment plan. I couldn't focus on life after cancer I just had to get through the day. Noe I'm in school, doing things with my husband and 12 yr. old daughter and my 5 yr. old grandboy. So don't assume your husband has lessened his chances, this may be his way to control a situation that is too big to handle any other way for him. I know it is hard for you,as it was for my hubby but he carried the hope for both of us. Keep the faith.
-Sue