Nikki & Tom, this disease has no mercy does it? My sister who is trying so hard to be the sunshine in my life, she came on this site one time. She said that after reading all these stories she cried for days and was sick to her stomah for almost a week. I told her "WELCOME TO THE CANCER WORLD". She has always been great with me and others, our Mother also had cancer, passed away 22 years ago. She asked me how do you get on there and read this, doesn't that just push you over the edge. I told her that it kicks my butt most of the time, but nothing as to what is happening in the peoples lives that are writing the posts. One day it will be me telling that there is nothing left for me to do, and I will need support from others to help ME thru this. THat is why we all are here to help in some small or big way. I pray that things will get easier for you two, with radaition treatments still to go, I know it will be some time before "EASY" fits into your sentences. I have been there too, GOD bless you both, you are never alone,,,,,ALWAYS Miss Vicki