Hi Barb- I know how you feel. Just last night I had a crying fit and finally had to get some things off my chest that were bothering me. I felt bad about letting my significant other hear all I had to say, but sometimes you can't keep stuff pent up. My man doesn"t like to talk about it. Today he starts his 3rd week of radiation. He is gone for a week at time because it's a 200 mile round trip. Keep yourself busy. I have painted everything I can from doors to the cattle pen. I wish I could be with him everyday, but we have cattle, pets, and a huge yard to care for. This is a great site. I read all I can for hours. Hang in there.