I went to my Gp on fri and he decided that the lymph node near my jaw had to be removed. SO they called my surgeon and I went there Fri afternoon...Now they arent sure if it is a lymph node or somthing in my Jaw.UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHh It is about the size of one of those large marbles. so I have to have a Ct scan. but it was like 5 pm when I finished with the Dr and they never called today to give me the appointment and when I called them they hadnt done it yet . CAN I JUST GO TO SLEEP NOW AND YOU WAKE ME WHEN IT IS OVER ? I really think I am starting to lose my mind. My good friend ( or so called) had a baby thurs came home fri and on sat at like 2-3 am ended up back in hospital baby stopped breathing. they called me at 430n am but I never heard phone as I had increase my meds acooring to Dr and I hadnt slept in 2 days so i was OUT . Then when I talked to them ( still not knowing ) they told me and told me I couldnt come over to hospital they would call me ..NEVER DID >I cant tell you all I do an have done for them. the baby was moved to albany med ( before they were less then 5 min from my houes)now an hr away.she calls me sun during my 8 year olds bday party..an tell me how her couisn "DROVE ALL THE WAY DOWN " when she found out ( to the one near my house) and NOthing kept her away ! I was P******* and HURT and Informe her that her husband Blatently told me not once but twice not to come there ( as I fin out now alot of others there) The same husband who went home and got himself 5-6 outfits and her nothing .she was hinting for me to run her kids between the adults that were taking them ..uhmmmm hello they are adults with vehicles and all close to an hour away from me . they are like 20 min from each other ! And then wanted me to leave my daughters party to come down ...The baby is fine I guess an stable and they were leaving the hospital to eat . I guess I feel so taken advantage off ..she even knew what was going on with me health wise and that mentally i was going through alot ..either way lymph node or jaw...surgery is in my futire. And when I think about it ...she lives 2 minutes from me ..when I had my BIG surgery she never came to hospital and didnt even come to see me till i was home for over a week. soooooo with all of this going on ..not doing so well ...very teary eyed and just wanting to figure away to get through it all ..and not nessacarilly have it all about me ..unless that is ok ..just soooooo overwhelemed right now.


shar