Sweeety, I can really feel what you're going through with your last two posts. I managed to get just about everyone I loved or knew mad at me by the end of the deal, even a few months afterward. I was angry, depressed, confused, and just plain worn out. To me everyone around me didn't understand, thought that now that the treatment was over I should be ok both physically and mentally, things were normal. Luckily, my wife and my mother understood, put up with me. My co-workers and boss didn't have a clue and I almost managed to get my self fired.

Not to make light of how you feel, but my solution to make some others understand went like this. There's a well known older expat in our community who look like hell, I mean like he should have gone to the great beyond a few years ago but someone forgot to tell him. I finally got through to my boss when he asked me how I felt and I replied "like _____ looks" His reply "that bad eh?"

Like others suggested, see if the doc can give you some antidepressents, maybe see if you can find a cancer support group locally.

And know that you are in our thoughs, any time you need to vent or need a cyber hug, we're here for you.
Bob