Well, I guess it`s time for Packer`s caretaker to jump in here...Caretaker is a word I truly hate, makes me feel like a groundskeeper! We haven`t been on the board lately, Packer`s been recovering from surgery 7......As far as what packer can still do..well...let me tell you first what he can`t do........he can`t talk, sing, whistle,or, last, but not least, eat....for those of you who don`t know Packer`s story, let me just say simply, he`s had the whole lower part of his face removed and rebuilt as well as possible...peg tube will be in for 2 years in August as well as permanent trach.......I have always felt blessed to be a part of his journey...we keep our lives as normal as possible, in 5 years, I`ve only seen him cry once, when he was first diagnosed........Is he disfigured? Damned right he is, he knows it and I know it......I protect him like a mother wolf, but unfortunately, not well enough, after all he`s been through, with more strength and dignity than I`ve ever seen, something happened yesterday, that I can`t repair....I asked him last evening, why he was so quiet....I know he can`t talk, but, I simply don`t notice that anymore..........he was out walking the dog and a car full of people yelled "HEY,FREAK" If anyone knows how to fix that, let me know, cause that tore us both apart, there were no words I could say...we are way beyond worrying what he can or cannot eat or whether one scar may show and we deal with it.....but, bottom line.....the real world does see him as a freak and that truly breaks my heart for him....reality 101
