Rosie, I`m going to tell you something, at the end of May, my 22 yr. son was found unconsious, in pa..........I immediately flew down.......he`s recovered, after 3 weeks in ICU, and I will tell you no one can understand the agony of helplessly watching a sick child. I sat by his bedside and could only hold his hand and watch the respirator do it`s job. It is the absolute worst thing in the world. It does produce so many emotions, you want so much for them to get better, but ultimately,you know it`s not your decision. No One can say they understand, until it happens to them. We still don`t really know what happened to my son,other than ARDS, the fear is there that it will happen again. With all Packers problems, I left Maine without thinking twice and left him in the neighbors care........I have been touched by what you are dealing with, I know your emotional pain is horrid, and believe you and Heather are in our prayers......Dee