Dear Michelle, losing someone you love is much more painful than losing hope on your own life. There is nothing you can do to get Marcy back and trying to regret what has not been done to help may only add further misery to those still alive. I believe there must be a reason for the doctor not to use radiation after surgery. You need to face the reality and there is still meaning in your life. There are more people who need your care and even more who are concerned about you. So pluck up your courage now. We are standing by your side.

Karen.