Dear Michelle, I understand how you`re hurting, after over two months, i wake up and think Frank is still sleeping beside me. And I do the what if, if only, but we can`t change it. Strange things still bother me, I can go through his clothes and two years of notes, but can`t pack my kitchen stuff for my move because it reminds me of cooking for him. Evenings are the worst, I just hold onto his teddy bear and cry. Do whatever you need to do to help yourself now......I keep reminding myself that Frank left me here to continue the fight, and I remind myself how strong he was, and now he needs me to keep up the fight...........Much Love and Prayers....Dee