Thankyou so much for your comments, this really helps me so much. I'm trying so hard to be positive. It is really hard for me. I'm used to my life going 100mph, which is probably the reason I'm in this place now. I need to figure out how to relax myself, something I'm not very good at to begin with. Thankyou for your support. I really need this, and I'm sure I will need it even more as I go thru this journey. Thankyou, Thankyou, Thankyou. You are so kind and thankyou for helping me.