Thank you all for the support. I am feeling, in general, a bit better overall, but I was pretty worried there for a few days. To say I felt shaken is a bit of an understatement. The overall feeling was kind of rough between the pain of the tumor in my ear, the nausea, the constipation, and the overall sense of exhaustion, I felt like I was on a pretty ragged edge.

I was hoping I would sail through this with aplomb -- I guess I found out that I am not, despite what I may have believed, a superhero. Alas, now I must deal with it like a mortal -- one day at a time and one issue at a time. I'll tell you who is a superhero, though: my wife. She's been next to me the whole unpleasant time. Guys, I am so ****ing lucky to have her in my corner.

I can't say I feel great, but I feel a lot better. Only two more f the Cisplatin to go, so that's good. Thanks for reminding me that I'm not a total loser for struggling so hard. It can definitely feel like you are when you're laid out shivering, nauseated and in the ER getting fluids while the nurses and doctors gather round to tell you not to let yourself get dehydrated. For those of us that have always gone our own way, always handled our problems by ourselves, this whole thing feels very debilitating. It's good to know I'm not the only one that got his face kicked in by the treatment.

Still pulling myself together, but hoping to return to work tomorrow.

Thanks for the support!! I'll add more after another nap -- naps comprise a lot of my days right now

The Hellion