So it's been a busy week, and in a good way. Most of the chemo hangover seems to have left me and I'm back to feeling kind of like myself. Still awfully weak, and the mouth/throat has been stepping up the past two days, but very much manageable.

My Chemo oncologist is out of town next week which moves my second Cisplatin back to the 21st. No big deal she assures me, but I will say it's a mixed blessing. It gives me a few days of reprieve but it just puts off the inevitable, too. If I'm entirely honest, the chemo is a bit in my head. I've never felt that bad for that long! Oh sure, I've had injuries that were more painful and for longer periods, but that feeling was kind of complete cellular collapse for a week!

Ah well, nothing for it but to get through it. Been back to work most hours of most days. The wife and I used a day this week to just hangout, watch some TV and enjoy a little sunshine before afternoon radiation. We both felt a little guilty, but as she said, it would be nice to be home together on a day I'm not just completely sick .

Meanwhile, still eating mostly proper food although the taste changes have taken a lot of the fun out of it. The sore throat is intense, but still in the bad cold region, so maybe I have another few days before that gets super intense.

Thank you to everyone here for helping make me feel better last week! This forum is really so valuable -- people like me need to know that we CAN survive the treatment from people that have and that our misery and tears are justified. It is so very soul-searchingly frightening to feel the way that Cisplatin made me feel -- serious questioning my manhood kind of pain. -- so it was nice to hear (even though I knew it was true) that I would get through it and it was OK to feel like a complete baby.

So, again, thank you all. I hope your journeys are proceeding apace as well. Just so you know, I plan to come here and cry into my beer after the next chemo, too!!!! Forewarned is forearmed!

The Hellion