 Senior Patient Advocate Patient Advocate (old timer, 2000 posts)
Joined: Sep 2006 Posts: 8,311 | Lori,
As the old saying goes, time heals all wounds. Trust me what you feel and fear today will diminish over time even though you will never forget. All of us experienced the "why me" and "what now" concerns post Tx and the majority just accepts it over time and we move forward. Some of us need professional intervention which is always an option. Perhaps give it some more time and try not to dwell on the past and if you need help then seek out these professionals who are licensed and trained to help you.
David
Age 58 at Dx, HPV16+ SCC, Stage IV BOT+2 nodes, non smoker, casual drinker, exercise nut, Cisplatin x 3 & concurrent IMRT x 35,(70 Gy), no surgery, no Peg, Tx at Moffitt over Aug 06. Jun 07, back to riding my bike 100 miles a wk. Now doing 12 Spin classes and 60 outdoor miles per wk. Nov 13 completed Hilly Century ride for Cancer, 104 miles, 1st Place in my age group. Apr 2014 & 15, Spun for 9 straight hrs to raise $$ for YMCA's Livestrong Program. Certified Spin Instructor Jun 2014.
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