Jen
Being diagnosed with cancer is not a death sentence, It can be beaten! wink I have had all the feelings you are having now, it was an emotional rollercoaster for me and I needed medication to cope at first. It was the toughest ride of my life.
Then I changed my attitude and said, (and with all my kids together) I promised them I was going to beat this. Two years later I

Stage 4b Tonsil cancer Survivor!
Dx 11/05/02 SCC 2cm tumor in left tonsil 7x4cm neck node L/side with other positive nodes on right,
Wide field Tonsillectomy Nov 20/02
Tx 1/2/03, Cisplatin Chemo x3, IMRT x 40 L/Neck Disection 08/15/03