Jen, you are wrong in saying there are not many stage 4 survivors stories available. Just read through people's replies to you and you will find there are more survivors of stage 4 than other stages here giving you support. I agree that oral cancer is not so 'popular' and there may not be too much information about it. But if you have searched forums of other types of cancer, I think you may not find one that is so informative and supportive as the OCF. You should consider yourself 'lucky' that you have found this forum so early as a support to you throughout your battle. I felt so lonely and desperate when I was having my treatment and eventally I got severely depressed. It was only when my depression was over that I came across this forum by chance. Don't ask why you are chosen to fight this devil. If you feel yourself wrongly chosen, how about me? I don't even smoke or drink in my entire life. Focus on what to do next rather than why you are here. Stay positive and post any question and I am sure you will get full support.

Karen.