klo,CHERYLD,christineB,aNNE-MARIE,mARIA,eRIES,iAM007

I hope I have not forgot any of you,reading your replys and even thinking of them now makes me cry,trying to stay calm and rational which I think under normal cercumstances I am I now find myself having to fight to stay together and a kind word or thinking of my husband and what he is and will go through hurts.I found a web page "American Cancer socity" where they were talking about side effects of Dex ,and lots of the people were talking ablot the change in personility,anger,etc .Befor "A" took this drug I was the best in the world and we were fine ,tow days into taking it he started to act a little off and then he exploided one morning and wanted a divorse I was hopeless etc and the anger etc,I talked our GP as I have told you and he said he was as high as a kite and spoke to the team at the hospital .IT went from bad to awful and now I am waiting till he comes back to earth.My GP is going in for tests (for himself) tomorrow so I will not phone him .I will meet with "A" team tomorrow and go over again how these drugs have effected him and check that they are bringing him down slowly .I have seen my Father and my Mother-in-lay lossing it in hospital with the meds they put them on even antibiotics when you are old can effect your mental state and only because "A" pushed me away and told me not to visit I was so upset and took it personaly ,If I had been rational I would have been in constant contact with the hospital ,checking his drugs daily and this could all have been sorted earlier but I became Parilized in fear .I am back to myself now and hope I do not mess up again .I will do the breathing ,I am a RC and have a brother a priest (an only brother who is the best in the world and advising me well)I have found a consellor and am meeting her again on Thursday,I am very lucky I have great support and a really close family.Thank you all for your help.I will let you know how things are going and hope soon that all will have settled down and that I am asking simple questions like " best foods to settle a dodgy stomach".I hope my experence will help someone else and that the minute they see their husband acting mad they go stright to the doctors and then keep on top of things and watch everything that their husband is taking and keep talking to the doctors("A's" thought he was not on dex for past 14days and he is on 4m a day!).
seana

age 50,dx march 2012,tx start 16th may,rads 34 imrt,chemo 7,no surgery.HPV ?.stg 4 BOT plus 1 sliva gland and toncil,casual drinker,smoked 19yrs ago but had odd cig.cycles approx 10ks 5 days wk.