Maria,
Its is all such a mess and trying to be loyal and not say anything to anyone is so hard .I have my family ,"A" sister and my GP plus a counsellor who I got which is all helping ,its just the worry,the not knowing what to do and afraid to of doing the wrong thing and the unbelievable sadness and guilt.I phoned the hospital and he is in over the weekend which is great so I dont have to worrie about that,they said he had gone out which is fine maybe he is visiting a friend.I will call in tonight and will know if he wants me to leave and will go,however I have been doing this and I think it really upsets him so I will email him again before I go to check but he does not seem to be looking at or answering my emails which I keep nutural and just tell him news of kids and that i am praying for him and sign off take care ,love seana.I will visit the reg in the hospital on monday and talk to them.I think when my son comes home on Thursday things will be better and I will know more of his plans.
thank you all.I wish I was talking and asking for advise on his diat,exercize ,things that would make his recovery better and not this which I feel is not related to BOT cancer but brought on by the meds he was given.
seana
P.S Have a great holiday and I know this will all end and hopefully I will be laughing with my husband about this in a years time.