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Joined: Jan 2011 Posts: 168 | I feel for you so much, so much. I also felt like I was not told how horrific treatment is, how it would bring me to my knees, and how hard recovery would be. Were they protecting me? I don't know. I ended treatment on 3/21/2011 and it took one month before I could talk and two months before I could eat by mouth - even a little - and three before I could make it through the day without pain meds. Just the other day I told a friend that when I was in the middle of treatment I said to myself that I wouldn't put myself through this again if the cancer came back. Of course, now I would because I know that healing happens. It is slow but it happens. YOU WILL HEAL. You will. I promise you. You will get your life back and it will be a deeper life because of all you endured and survived. -Michelle
SCC left tonsil, stage IV, HPV+, metastatic to one lymph node. Biopsy 12/23/10; tonsillectomy 1/13/11; DX 1/25/11; Peg in 1/28/11. Peg out 6/29. TX 1/31/11-3/21/11: 35 IMRT plus 3 Cisplatin. Pet-Scan 6/20/11 = CLEAR! Three years out, learning to live with the long-term side effects of radiation while reminding myself to feel blessed.
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