Hi Kerri, I know how bad you feel (and about whom). I share your pain. However, you and I were able to beat this horrible disease for a reason while others were not so fortunate. You, because you have 2 small children to raise and myself I think it was so that I could help other OC victims. so take some time to grieve for the sadness and the unfairness of the news we got today about our mutual friend, but then do what you say and put the big-girl pants on; raise your babies to be good people with huge hearts and do it for those that did not survive. and vent here any time you need to,sweetie.