I am and always have been "emotional velcro". I'm not sure where I'm heading with this post, but I just have to say some stuff. Everything sticks to me and I have such a hard time letting things go. When I hear someone else's misfortune, I often get this paralyzing fear that the same thing or worse is going to happen to me. I know this is childish and self-centered, but I have to "own" it. I tend to let these things paralyze me with fear. I become afraid of everything and end up wasting so much time because I would rather just escape by sleeping or watching TV...just sitting inside my house on a gorgeous day. The thing that adds to the negative emotions is the guilt that I feel for bringing others down with me. I have two beautiful little children. I don't want them to learn this from me as I learned it from others. I need to break the cycle. I need to overcome this inertia and get on with my life. I don't want cancer to define me. Yes, it's part of me and always will be...hopefully, just part of my history. But, there is always going to be something...something on which I can place blame for my inaction. It's time to put on my "big girl" pants and grow the hell up.

UGH! Sorry to vent. I've gotta let the crazy of the leash sometimes! Yes, I have a therapist.