Kerri,
I feel the exact same way. I am just happy sitting in my recliner watching TV or,doing things on the computer to escape reality. I too often think that a recurrence is not too far away. I also have two beautiful boys and one on the way. I keep thinking I am must be crazy to have wanted another child, and the fear of this stuff returning is overwhelming. You are not alone.


Angelia
31 at Dx.
DX: 4/30/09, 10/21/09 SCC on floor of mouth,
T1NOMO, T2N1M0
TX: 39 IMRT, 8 cisplatin 11/30/09
PET/CT: 11/03/09: Lymph node involvement
PEG/PORT: 11/09
TX end: 02/01/10
PET Scan: 04/05/10 clear
PEG Out: 06/21/10
Biopsy: 12/23/10: fibrosis
HBO: 01/04/11 - ORN
Baby girl born 11-30-12