Margie

Don't know if Patsy Cline's song: Crazy was popular downunder, and even if she was, it was probably before your time. your thread title: Am I crazy made me think of it.
[quote]Crazy, I'm crazy for feeling so lonely
I'm crazy, crazy for feeling so blue...
Worry, why do I let myself worry?
Wond'ring what in the world did I do?...
I'm crazy for trying and crazy for crying[/quote]

But what else can we do but keep trying? You are not alone in having pain and radiation complications. Perhaps our doctors should start preparing us like the radio and TV ads all do when discussing any TX or medicine: " Individual results will vary ". For many of us, daily pain is the "new normal".

For me, exercise and wine really help my daily pain - although not at the same time
Sorry it's going so hard for you
Charm