Do anything but sit in the house. Keep busy and your mind occupied as this will let other thoughts enter your mind. I am alone and if I didn't keep busy, I would be worrying too. You can't conrol the Cancer but don't let it control you either. Good luck with the Erbitux. I had that too along with Rads daily. The worst I had were the rad seed implants and wonder if they were really necessary.

Since posting this. UPMC, Pittsburgh, Oct 2011 until Jan. I averaged about 2 to 3 surgeries a week there. w Can't have jaw made as bone is deteroriating steaily that is left in jaw. Mersa is to blame. Feeding tube . Had trach for 4mos. Got it out April.
--- Passed away 5/14/14, will be greatly missed by everyone here