Hi everyone

It's been a while since I last posted. I have had my cancer come back for the 2nd time while waiting to undergo chemoradiation in April. Since then, I have had 3 lots of chemo induction and now am on Eurbitux in conjunction with radiotherapy. I have done very well with holding it all together even though at times, I just felt completely deflated by the aggressive nature of this cancer. I know it has infiltrated a few places in my neck, but we still are not sure whether or not the chemo managed to shrink the tumours at all. My MO wants to scan me after rads, his logic is we hit this thing with everything they got. I have only been to 3 rads sessions, so far only a swollen neck and cheek (Right side where the tumours are)and a slightly painful left neck. The last few days, I have noticed my anxiety levels rising to a point where I feel it's harming my ability to get through this treatment. I know there are many people who have gone through rads without much problems but I was wondering if there any out there who felt the same way as I am....worried, restless and fearful? If so, how did you get through it all? Wish I could reboot this computer in my head..I just need to feel strong and brave!

Any advice would be appreciated. Thanks in advance.

Liza