Tammy,
You have to be strong. I do know that. At first it was hard, but it is very necessary. I would lay in bed and watch TV, as I could think about something else then. It is now 13 years later, and I have had 2 more cancers, with 2 surgeries, and am having probably more trouble that I did at first. I had a negative biopsy last Feb. and it will not heal. Hurts all the time, and I can't wear my bottom teeth or eat much that isn't soft. But I have my Yorkies and my books, and a couple of kids and grand kids, so I feel lucky. It could be a lot worse. I have been cancer free since 2007. Bless you and I wish you well.
Jeanie51
Oregon