Thanks to all of you for venting. I find myself so "weepy" this time of year because I can't do everything that I have done in the past. I am back working, but that's about all I have the energy to do. It takes me so long to eat anything, and I am so sick of Ensure that I could scream. I try to be positive for my husband because he worries about me, but it's hard. I had a good result from my last PET scan - all clear, but it is hard to keep up my spirits.

Female, nonsmoker, 70, diag. 5/09 after tongue biopsy: stage IV. Left hemi-gloss. and left selec. neck disec. 30 lymph nodes removed May 20. Over 7 weeks daily rads. with three chemo. PEG removed 12/4/09 Am eating mostly soft foods. Back to work 11/09 Retired 4/1/11. 7 clear scans! Port out 9/11. 2/13. It's back: base of tongue, very invasive
surgery involving lifestyle changes. 2/14: Now speaking w/Passey-Muir valve. Considering a swallow study. Grateful to be alive.