I am not at the nightmare hospital anymore. What happened was, I think, the anxiety at the time I posted, was lower and resentment surfaced about all the crap that went wrong including that event about which I am still angry as it was needless suffering and triggered the whole constant anxiety !@#$$; I wish I never heard of that hospital. The abuse I am sure continues there daily; I wish someone would close it.
[quote=suzanne98]TRT,

I'm a little bit confused. Are you still being treated at the hospital where you had a bad experience? It sounds to me like you need to start taking control of your life. Everyone has feelings that they could do more or be more. And the thing is...you can. You can make changes in your life. 40 is young. You have plenty of time to accomplish what you want in life. [/quote]