Hi bjmpittsburgh,

Welcome to the forum. I am sorry that after seventeen years you are back. That's really disappointing. Here you can complain all you want, we have all been through the experience in one way or another and we truly understand what you are feeling.

Having to see a therapist is not a last ditch effort -- in fact, having someone to whom you can unburden may well help you to put things in perspective and help you to figure out how you can cope with the present situation. At least, that's the experience I have. I don't see it as weak, it's just help I need like I may need a crutch if I break my leg.

There are quite a number of members who are on permanent feeding tubes; maybe they will pop in and give you their perspective.

The treatment is for the body but as far as my experience goes, I find it requires a huge adjustment emotionally and mentally as well. Maybe you are in the process of working that through.

If you need to ask questions or simply to voice your frustrations, you are welcome to do it here. We will listen.