In the words of your brother and your signature.
"Everyday is beautiful"

Keep that at the forefront of your mind to honor his memory. I know this isn't easy at all. I would be absolutely devestated if I lost my sister. My heart would be broken. We share so much of who we are with siblings. Our childhoods-- kids shape each others personalities and can make each otehr laugh more and piss each otehr off more than probably any one else in your life!. It can be a very special reationship deeper than most of your friendships.... and it sounds like your was brother this way to you. It sucks that he went through what he did and that he isn't here with you. I wish that he was. He sounds liek a wonderful special person.

I think just living each day in honor of his memory would help ease the pain. He would want you to be so happy and fulfilled in your life and not sad and depressed. Easier said that done of course.

take care and I hope you start to feel a littl ebetter soon.
focus on things that make you happy and thing that made jorge happy

K