Hey there

its a while since we spoke sweetie and i am not surprised to read your post at all.
I am just packing my bags to go and stay with my mum because of the same things.I feel as if i have gone backwards just recently and find old destructive habits resurfacing because my heart is heavy and my emotions all over the place.Spring and new growth seems to just accentuate the feeling of despair that robs life is over,and the sunshine and the flowers are almost like salt being rubbed in to a wound that doesn't seem to feel much better even after 20 months.Like you i find being proactive for others walking our path,is very beneficial,but as soon as i close the laptop its still a big empty room and a big empty heart.

Its difficult to write this here as its so negative for the carers who have the worst to face,but sometimes it is so hard to keep inside and you think no one understands.Just like patients in recovery you just keep wondering WHEN will this get better?


Hope it helps to know you are not alone.

love and hugs liz