Wow I just read my last post and I was ashamed of myself. I have stopped taking all those pills because like Jim said that was way too much. I was so depressed I can't believe what I wrote. I am not suisidal. I have no death wish. Yep I hurt like all rip but I can deal with it. I am only taking the muscle relaxers AS PRESCRIBED and my zoloft. I cant stand a poor me poor me person and I am not like that. We all have gone through a great deal and because we fought we have over come! I have not had as much to deal with as a lot of you and I read your post and all I see is good cheer. That is what this board is right, helping each other deal with things. So I will step off my crate and stop being a wimp. As the song goes, I am woman I am strong.
Ok I should be able to post some (hopefully) good news later today as my test should be back, so far most have been good. I still have to have my gum biopsied, ( I should go back to school to learn how to spell). I also am going to find out where there is a place I can go to for pain management. I dont like pills they only hide junk they dont really fix it right?right. So I will be posting better happier post soon I hope. Brenda

49 years young 9/2007 Squamous Cell Carcinoma 33 rad treatments. One year later, 9/17/2008 50 years old through the Grace of God. last check up all clear. Living life as it comes to me.