Brenda, absolutely no need to apologize. We all need to dump the negative emotions somewhere and this is a good place for it. I sure don't want to lay it all on my family so I have come here a time or two just to let it go, and found that I am no where near alone and niether are you. We all get sick of dealing with it so come right out and say it any time.

David R. 65 yr old male non-smoker, light drinker, stage 3 or 4, depending on which doc you ask, scc rt. tonsil, 2 nodes, 7 weeks radiation and chemo. No surgery. Teatment ended 3/20/08. PET scan 8/08 showed no cancer.
And now, as of oct, 2010, caregiver to wife, Linda, with breast cancer.
May, 2013, Linda diagnosed with stage 3 ovarian cancer. Enuf already.