Brenda

If a Lepreckaun can't bitch to a Lucky Charm, then what is the world coming to. I am amazed at all the strong powerful and wonderful women here. Yeah, this is the place to vent, but guess what, through the magic of watching and reading about how others are coping, you get cheered up. My favorite Cancer cartoon book: Cancer made me a shallower person (buy it on Amazon but thru the OCF link) has a cartoon about the whole world being divided into those with cancer and those without it. Of course it is written by a woman. Treat yourself to a copy and laugh outloud at some of the scenarios. The author had breast cancer and yes it came back and she died, but her observations are funny and spot on.
Look this cancer stuff sucks. I seriously contemplated not getting this surgery done and just dying - I had thought it was all over after one year of clean MRIs and PETscans, then to be told it was back big as in the beginning as though I never had radiation or chemo - all that suffering for nothing. Yeah I was big on the pity party and ready to punch the next sonofagun in the nose who said: oh you are tough, you are a fighter, you will get thru this. I imagined tossing a good hard right cross and knocking them on their ass and saying; tough enough for you. Then I read these posts and see Suzanne, Cookey, Liz, Donna, Cheryl, Patti, EZJim, Ray, PeteD, and too many more to list all who have had it much much worse than me and I am ashamed of myself in a good way that motivates me to be charming in the year 2017.
Nobody outside of OCF can truly know how we feel. No matter how much your family and friends love you, they just don't get it if they are not a caregiver or patient. We do, so
BRING IN ON BRENDA BABY