Gary,
Good for you for telling it like it is! It is scary to hear
how brave everyone is when you are scared to pieces and you
think you are a wimp and a "goner". I have been there - even though everyone (even my psychologist) saying to not ever let my husband see me cry and not to let anyone know I am upset. ( I did not
go back to him, by the way).

You are right-one day at a time. One day may be scary and the next
wonderful, until you get more good than bad hopefully.

Take care
Debbie