The search revealed nothing,but the police have received a report of a man seen walking down the highway at 5.30 am last Saturday.
My gut is churning in fear that tomorrow will see the end of this nightmare,because i dont believe if paul is still alive that he wont get in touch,buti know that without his phone he wont have my number.
Although robs ashes are buried in Hampshire with his father,i thank god that i will be going to my own memorial that is in the cemetery here in yorkshire.My mind will be distracted though as i will be filled with the images of police lurking in the trees surrounding the old village church in Hampshire,and i feel so angry that Robs daughter and cousins,nephews and nieces will all have to deal with that head on.
How the hell could Paul sully Robs memorial day like this,after all we went through together last year,and my mind is filled with pictures of Paul sitting by Robs bed stroking his head and whispering things to him as his life ebbed away.
In another part of my head i pray that i will drive to Harrogate tomorrow and find Paul sitting by Robs memorial here in Yorkshire ,or at least something to let us know he has been here.

I am working at the hospice tomorrow.so at least i will be in my own safe world for the day.

thanks for all your wonderful words and support.At least i know the family i have here will never hurt me,or desert me.

love liz