its 3.30 in the morning and i still haven't heard anything.The police suspended the air search until 9pm this evening because so many people walk thier dogs on the common that their thermal imaging cameras were picking up too many heat sources,so they decided it would be better to wait until dusk when most people are back home.robins sister in Portugal is distraught .Paul is her twin,and has just been out to stay with her for 10 days.She tried to persuade him to stay,but he had to get back to work,and was desperate to try and resolve things with his wife.
Last weekend i was down in Hampshire for the weekend.I spent two hours with Paul,and was shocked at his physical and mental state.
He has lost so much weight and was in a constant state of agitation.When i left him,the last words i said to him were"what are you going to do now?" he replied "going to find the nearest tree".I grabbed hold of him and really told him his fortune!! I never thought for one minute that he might really do just that. He text me the next day to say how much he wished i lived nearer as he would come and stay with me.He felt so alone and thought i was the only person who understood how he feels.why didn't he just get in his car and come too me?
This waiting is just like last year waiting for robins scan results.I just thank god that their mother has no idea what is going on.She was admitted to a care facility last July with alzheimers.she doesn't even know Rob is gone even though Paul has told her half a dozen times.
I am sorry to ramble ,but my head is all over the place.
Last edited by Cookey; 07-19-200808:18 PM.
Liz in the UK
Husband Robin aged 44 years Dx 8th Dec 2006 poorly differentiated SCC tongue with met to neck T1N2cM0 Surgery and Radiation.Finished TX April 2007 Recurrence June/07 died July 29th/07.
Never take your eye off the ball, it may just smack you in the mouth.
