I'm so sorry for your loss Lisa, you sound, understandably, totally overwhelmed.
There are others on here who have also been bereaved this year and still find comfort in this board and I'm sure they will be willing to share their experiences with you.
Try and stay strong, as you know Bill would want,

Brenda

Brenda in UK--Diagnosis 30/5/07--undifferentiated carcinoma in right jawbone and muscles. Stage 4
6/7/07--new diagnosis primary is in lung. Finished 4cycles of palliative carboplatin/gemcitabine
therapy September 07
Now dying to live!