Lisa,
I too lost my first husband to a brain tumor after 15 months of marriage. He did not have it when we first married. I was 24 and he was 26. I have blocked so much of that hurt out now, but it does come back. I now have another family with 2 grown boys but I think of him and his suffering often.
The thing that got me through was friends and family. Let them keep you busy, don't shut them out. It will be hard some days for you yourself to get up so let them help you. They really want to do something anyway. Keep on and one day the pain will not be as bad and life will seem worth living again, I promise.May God bless you and be with you as you struggle with this. We will all be here to listen -just know you are not alone.
debbie
Debbie