Gary

My husband has lost all this weight because he has not been able to eat solid food since May. Our ordeal has had many phases. Initially we thought we were dealing with a severe fungus infection as that was one of the things that showed up in the 1st biopsy, the 2nd was abnormal cells.

When the 2nd biopsy was done, those results showed SCC and he had his first surgery done in which a small portion of his tongue was removed. The margins came back clear but 2 weeks after this surgery an infection on the left side of his tongue submerged and that was not biopsied until 2 months later. He has dealt with a very severe swollen tongue that prevents him from swallowing textured food. I was having to put everything on the blender and puree it.

He just had his PEG tube inserted a little over a week and the Jevity has not really done much to help with weight gain.

We are in the process of doing our living trust but I guess I have not really been concerned with his reocurrance because its only carcinoma in-situ. There is no tumor or mass this 2nd time. I refuse to give in to the possibility that he could lose his life to this damm thing.

He has told me on many occasions that he feels like something is still very wrong with him and the Dr's are not finding it. He sometimes feels like this is it for him. He has also said that if something happens I should remarry but I tend to ignore that comment. I don't care much for it.

I am doing everything I can to get him through this and we have been reassured that the rads and chemo will take care of it. There are no signs of it spreading and he did have 2 lymph nodes removed in July with the 1st surgery that came back clear as well.

I guess I am in denial. It just doesn't make sense as he is/was not a smoker.