Hi Dan,
I remember you saying a few weeks ago that you really didn't feel any different physically so I feel like all this you are dealing with right now is emotional. I don't feel that your body is preparing for what is to come, I think you are severely depressed, rightfully so. When you first came on the boards and when you ended treatment I recall you were quite depressed so this may be something you are prone to. Take Joanna's advice and go to a therapist, deal with the emotions of what you are dealing with, it must be so overwhelming. I wish there was something I could do to help. I trust that you will find your way in all of this.
Love,
Minnie


SCC Left Mandible. Jaw replaced with bone from leg. Neck disection, 37 radiation treatments. Recurrence 8-28-07, stage 2, tongue. One third of tongue removed 10-4-07. 5-23-08 chemo started for tumor behind swallowing passage, Our good friend and much loved OCF member Minnie has been lost to the disease (RIP 10-29-08). We will all miss her greatly.