Rosie,
If anyone has a right to feel anger...it is you. I hope that I have not appeared smug because I have not happened to feel that particular emotion as I have endured diagnosis, treatment and recovery.
It is easy for me not to feel anger as the sick one was just little old me and I was the one to endure it. If this had happened to one of my children, you damn right I'd be angry and frustrated as hell...especially if I believed that it could have turned out differently with better treatment.

Rosie, you are a wonderful spirit that everyone here really appreciates. Noone here is in a position to judge you, nor, do I believe, would anyone ever do so. Keep on keeping on!

Danny G.